Hello all,
I’m so sorry about the delay in this blog
post, I only have a dongle you see and I just got my new allowance of Internet.
Any who, excuses over.
In doing this project I am often thinking
on the subject of body’s and their representation. And inevitably I can’t stop
thinking about my body. Now, in theory I am all for acceptance. I truly believe
that when it comes to how people look everything is ok, I swear I do. I mean
yes I have preferences there are those who I would consider more pretty than
others but I just put that down to opinion. I believe that there is no right
and wrong and all women are woman weather they have big tits no tits, hips, a
belly, long hair short hair ect… however, I have a question. Why can’t I relate
my acceptance to myself? I feel terribly hypocritical doing an art project
about acceptance and different bodies when I can’t even accept my own body. I’m
having a particularly bad week this week. The flat I live in has large mirrored
wardrobes right next to where I sit and sleep. And I swear some times I want to
smash them. I look massive at the moment. I know I look know different from how
I looked the day before but sometimes I see myself in the mirror and I just
want to claw bits of me off.
It upsets me and annoys my partner and I
sound like a broken record. I’m fat; I'm ugly ECT ECT ECT. I know that a lot of people have this
and it is a horrible feeling, its like your trapped in something that makes you
feel ill and anxious. Whether its because you feel fat, skinny, ugly, bald, flat
chested, oddly shaped, big bummed.. The list is endless. If possible I would
like this project to have the effect of helping the women involved be able to
cope with those feelings better when and if they occur. I think if we see others
who are “imperfect” so to speak (which I believe is every one) we will see that
everyone is completely different. And yes you will still envy your friend’s
tiny waste or your sister’s full chest but you’ll know and you’ll believe that
your body is just fine. It will get bigger smaller it’ll perk and droop but its
all just part of being human.
NEW WORK:I’m going to start doing a series of what I suppose
are simple line drawings on black card. Focusing on the shape of bodies and the
lines the out lines and shadows they cast. I will post them as they are
completed.
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